I wrote the Captain an email, but have
yet to send it. I’m scared of his reaction. If he’s mean, my heart won’t maintain
fortitude, nor my mind the clarity and serenity it has worked so hard to
attain. So, my job is to decide what I
want out of the contact—friendship? Closure? Revenge? Ego boost that he didn’t
get the final word? I have more thinking to do. An email shouldn’t hold as much
weigh as I’ve made it—but he can be very cruel.