I’m a bit stronger today than I was
yesterday and I can only hope that this trend will continue into tomorrow. My
feelings towards the Capt grow microscopically more indifferent every day. And
that’s all I can ask for. Indifference.
Not hate.
I know one day the idea of him won’t make
me sad, but for now I accept this iota of gloom. At least it also brings with
it feeling of disgust, sympathy, and anger. Hopefully these will all coalesce
into that wonderful monster of indifference.