I will not focus on the things I neglect.
I will not abuse myself for the things I ‘don’t do’ which I believe may make me
happier. I will instead post facts:
1-
I
am dating a 23 year old man.
2-
He
acts 23
3-
I
am 32 years-old
4-
I
am moving to AZ in two months and will, consequently, be apart from him
5-
My
faith is shaken by relationships past
6-
I
have received discouraging words from friends
7-
Taking
away someone’s hope is tragic and unfair
So, what to do? This boy can’t handle a
woman. He’s not a man yet, and I’m not interested in being the one who teaches
him how to be one…or to wait until he is. At this point I wonder why I even
bother; most of the relationship is a disappointment and I’m exhausted from
feeling second best—to his friends. I am SO available because I don’t know how
else to be.