I don’t know where to start. Maybe a
list:
Family: Two grandmothers and my favorite
uncle have died in the last two months. I miss my mom and have suddenly become
conscious of my dad’s mortality. I’m fairly convinced that my sister thinks I’m
the worst.
Friends: I want a buddy.
School: I may go to Turkey to study the Iranian
trans community. For fear of governmental repercussions opted out of Iran. In
all honesty though, I want to drop out. I’m suddenly aware of how futile this
is and can’t help from asking myself “who cares”?
Boys: I’ve been waiting for a boy to call
me since my early 20s. I’m bored and defeated. Today is a casual and dirty boy
named Dan.
Me: Great, but slightly jaded from all this.