We are in a relationship again. What
happened? I’ve been wondering about needs. How everyone has them and how their
ubiquity trickles into different facets of life. Needs from friends, boyfriend,
self…although the role of the boyfriend is always played by a man on the stage
of my life, there is always, and there always will be, an understudy. The one currently
playing the role is S*. And when we arrive at my needs, he makes me feel
guilty for having them. I need to feel important to him. I need to feel like an
excellent version of myself. But these needs are not met and now I need to stop
thinking about him.