I live in a different state than a man
whom I was dating in a mediocre relationship in the first place. Do I want to
continue this bullshit masquerade of a relationship? The head-fuck part is that
we’re not in a relationship when we’re in different cities; yet when our geographies are aligned, we practice monogamy, communication, and good-heartedness. This is so
fucking hard to keep straight. Maybe I need to stop dissecting this and just
end it. All of this arranging and planning how to be with someone shouldn’t be
so hard.