Potomac

Raindrops fall—are you listening? In the nation’s capitol snow is glistening. There are people in this town by whom I feel almost feel ‘found’. But I think of the boys. I can’t focus on my books or friends because obsessions develop and usurp and other words relating to hegemony. I can’t rationalize loving boys I don’t know, who treat me poorly, ignore me and make me feel to be a burden while I ignore my friends.

I make myself so easy to free them of any burden they may possibly stumble into while knowing me. Getting to know me. They’ll never have to fight for it. I’ll never make that fight necessary. I’m available whenever they need me. Waiting around to be ignored.