I’m sad today because…
My work crush is engaged
Conclusion: he doesn't want me
You would not want him. You want him to want you. It’s been a long time since a boy caught your attention, and you are out of practice with navigating through the complexities of a crush. While tricky to maneuver, it’s not impossible. Perspective is key: he is a repeat of that other boy with the fiancée. And the other one, too. Just be a fucking friend. That’s some beautiful shit, right there, if you can get it right.
I feel worthless at my job
Conclusion: I’m not perfect
Yeah, guess what. There are whole degrees for this shit and you came in cold. Let’s be honest—whatever you learned in the last job didn’t prepare you for this. Be nice to yourself. You’re a beginning Italian language student and tested into advanced. Navigate from there.
My sister is in constant pain
Conclusion: I can’t fix her
God isn’t even God sometimes. Those with all the power in the universe can’t control the universe, and I can’t blame myself for being one of the powerless ones. She doesn’t expect me to fix her, so why do I feel so suffocated by the pressure to do so?
I want to exercise but don’t
Conclusion: I am neglectful
And the fixation of being thin and beautiful slips through another of these ten chubby fingers and courses through another of these endless and infinite fucking days.
